My new job

Today is my 2nd day in MAXIS, my employer number five! No suprises, I kind of feel at home, coz I had been in this environment before. I was early, and to my excitement, i didn't have to endure long sleepy journey to work, thus it was a great feeling, alhamdulillah....

The parking place is quite far, to my standard, coz i don't walk fast, but it's a nice walk thru the KLCC park. That reminds me to get a comfy shoe, coz these heels don't actually do me any justice.

The office is nice, and my boss seems a gud person to work with...result-oriented, friendly and I hope its not just a short impression. InsyaAllah we can work as a team.

I pray to Allah for a barakah working journey and experience here, in Maxis.....Ameen!

Saddest Day for Me...and Malaysia

FRIDAY THE 3RD OF APRIL 2009..... I will remember it as a sad, humiliating and mourning day for me. I have never felt this way, whenever a new PM was sworn in before, but today, as Najib is being sworn in as I write, my heart is broken.......

How do I tell my children about this new PM? Would I tell them about the first lady too? Can I tell them how proud we are to have such PM? Is he a Muslim of example? How about his family? Is he trustworthy, clean or even sane???

I feel numb!!! Just numb!!!

This is a big test from Allah s.w.t to Malaysia. I pray for a hikmah behind it. May Allah bestow His Love and Forgiveness to us all...InsyaAllah.

Surah At-Takaathur

Dengan Nama Allah Yg Maha Pemurah Lagi Maha Mengasihani.

Kamu telah dilalaikan (daripada mengerjakan amal bakti) oleh perbuatan berlumba-lumba untuk mendapatkan dengan sebanyak-banyaknya (harta benda, anak pinak, pangkat dan pengaruh).

Sehingga kamu masuk kubur.

Jangan sekali-kali (bersikap demikian)! Kamu akan mengetahui kelak (akibatnya yang buruk semasa hendak mati)!

Sekali lagi (diingatkan): JANGAN SEKALI-KALI (KAMU BERSIKAP DEMIKIAN!) Kamu akan mengetahui kelak ( akibatnya yang buruk di hari Kiamat)!

Demi sesungguhnya! Kalaulah kamu mengetahui (apa yang akan kau hadapi) dengan pengetahuan yg yakin, (tentulah kamu akan mengerjakan perkara2 yg menjadi bekalan kamu di akhirat).

(Ingatlah) Demi sesungguhnya! Kamu akan melihat neraka yg marak menjulang.

Selepas itu - demi sesungguhnya! - Kamu (wahai org2 yg derhaka) akan melihatnya dgn perhatian yg yakin (semasa kamu dilemparkan ke dalamnya)!

Selain dari itu, sesungguhnya kamu akan ditanya pada hari itu, tentang segala nikmat (yg kamu telah menikmatinya)!

I want to be reminded of this ayat...all the time..! Lots of time, I drifted away from Allah, then near again.

Working towards becoming an obedient servant of Allah, InsyaAllah.

MAK IS 66 on 20th MARCH 09....

Happy Birthday to Mak.....66 Years older.


We LOVE you so much for who you are and all the sacrifices that you had done in bringing us up....

We LOVE you for the strong woman you are....

We LOVE you for the LOVE you give us....

I LOVE you for being there for me .......

Nothing can repay what you are to us....Thank you Mak.......

...........................WE LOVE YOU FOR EVERYTHING........................

2 down....

Basyeera and Caca caught fever right after the break in Terengganu. Alhamdulillah, Caca had it for a while, but Basyeera is not completely cured as I'm writing this entry. She returned to school today, after resting since Monday. Alhamdulillah, it was not anything to worry about, although her fever prolonged till day 5. The cure is to drink lots of water and eat lots of fruits. Balqeesh, on the other hand was energetic and excited to go back to school. Alhamdulillah, she was fine...

When they are down with fever, I need to be up and healthy to care for them. I am glad that I've been taking vitamins aka. food supplements to stay healthy, with Allah's permission.

I PRAY TO ALLAH TO GRANT MY FAMILY WITH GOOD HEALTH...

Terengganu..here we come!

We were in Terengganu from 18 to 21st of March 09, which was on the school holiday and Mak's birthday on the 20th March. Mak, the gals, K. Ina and her kids, my friend Shima and her kids. 3 families, lead by 4 ladies....hahahha..women power!! It has been quite a while since the last time i was in Terengganu and the gals'
first time. It was still beautiful, as i remembered it, especially the beach route...and of course, the development done to the cbd. It was like going into a new town...

Sutra Beach Resort was our choice the first 2 days, then to K. Ina's brother's house. The resort was nice, with big swimming pool and Malay architecture. However, it looked like it has been a bit neglected by the management...I was right when told by a staff there that a new management had just took over....hhmm!!

The children had fun in the pool, while mak, K. Ina and me had fun shopping at the famous Pasar Payang in Kuala Terengganu. Lots of batik, hand craft and local kuih's... There, we met Uncle Abi, Mak's long time classmate, who treated us the whole day, from the kuih to lunch...Tq Uncle Abi!

One thing alarmed me in Terengganu was the coastal 'hakisan', which made the beach not desirable to swim in. I remembered playing by the beach and swimming whenever Abah brought us back to see Atuk in Malacca and Dengkil from Kelantan. Now a days, the kids are safer swimming in the pool than the ocean. Well, lets see what the government will do about it.

Pantai Batu Buruk is the same too...I just love the scene of children and adults playing kites, horses, playground and people just lazying around by the beach. It was a great day to be outside, to appreciate Allah's creations and to preserve it for our children.

There are lots of other attractions to visit, such as the Taman Tamadun Islam, Masjid Terapung in Kuala Ibai, the new airport, Pantai Ketapang, NorAlfa Batik Complex, the Equestrian Resort, Waterfront, Losong, Istana Maziah and of course the Bazaar Warisan, right infront of Pasar Payang. And not to forget the food...nasi kerabu, nasi dagang and seafood goreng by the beach!

By day 4, the kids are so tanned and tired...

We will definitely come back to Terengganu....InsyaAllah.

The gals and school

It has been quite sometimes since my last posting. Just not up to it.... This is what i fear most about blogging, when the laziness takes its toll. I need to be in the mood, as they say.... Oh well, I'm here now, back to blogging. I pray that Allah will guide me towards being istiqamah in everthing I venture into, InsyaAllah.

This morning I had the chance to discuss with the gals' teachers in their school regarding their studies and a little chat with K. Zan on the school as a whole. I was actually not happy with Batrisyia being in std 2, when she's not even 7 yet. I just don't want to repeat the same mistake that had happened to Aqeesh. I believe, after assisting her with her homework last night, that she's NOT ready for std. 2 for now. She needs to be in std 1, so that she could have the systematic learning process for subjects like B. Melayu and Maths. I surely want her to enjoy going to school.....doing the subjects of her level. The teachers explained their intentions and plans for the gals. Well, although I was not totally convinced its gonna work, I do have a part of me that says otherwise. I mean giving it another chance sort of thing.

Balqeesh is doing fine, especially when the teachers spoke highly of her achievements and development in her studies. I know she gonna be fine...InsyaAllah.

Then, this little chat I had with K. Zan was the worrying part. The school needs a total transformation in how they deal with the children, esp. the reputatation as a Tahfiz school. Balqeesh once came home and told me that her school needs to change its name to Sekolah Budak-Budak Nakal Gurney! SubhanAllah.......what is she thinking here?? My gals are picking up bad words and actually using them at home. They commented that even the older gals use the words toward small children. This is a bit surprising though, since I want to believe that this school has been around for 8 yrs. Surely the tarbiyah process had started long before!

We also talked about complaints on the unhealthy food, the teachers, the subject's syllabus, the miscommunication between the teachers and Ibu Laila, the cleanliness of toilets, eating place, uncontrolled behavior of the boys when teachers are not around in class and the fact that the school is still unorganized!! Don't get me wrong here.....I adores Ibu, appreciate her tireless effort to manage the school and love how she handles the children. However, she just can't do it all by herself....she needs help and cooperation. No doubt, there are some improvement since school started, but it needs a lot more effort here.

I need to feel comfortable that my children are in the good hands that the intention for them to have Quran is justified and actually happening in this school. I pray to Allah for an assurance that I'm doing the right move transferring them here. I also pray for more improvements in the school...insyaAllah.

Aqeesh in the hospital...again!

Today is day 3 that Aqeesh has been warded in Pantai Hospital due to asthma, which also means my 3rd day of camping here. She's getting better now, except for the terrible cough. The doc, Dr. Azam is making her stay to make sure the cough is subsiding.

This is all due to too much swimming in cold water last weekend. I guess after this, we will have to be more attentive to what she can and not do, so that we won't end-up spending nites in the hospital. Furthermore, she needs to be healthy in order to participate in the outdoors, something that she loves doing.

This hospital is gud, except for the WIFI problem I've been encountering. Well, don't get me wrong here...it is important that I can stay in touch with my work and the world..right?

Above that all...I miss kakak and Caca already.

InsyaAllah, Aqeesh can leave for home soon......

Have you read any good book lately??

At the moment, i'm reading a book called "WOMEN ARE FROM VENUS and MEN ARE FROM MARS". A Great book, to be read by all to understand the opposite sex, especially when the opposite sex is our spouses. They are from the littlest thing to the biggest attributes of men and women. I will surely write about it once i finished reading it...soon, I hope!

Then it will be other books waiting in my pipeline this month...

1. The Leader in Me by Steven R. Covey

2. The Palestinian Walks

I love to imagine myself with a good book, on a hammock by the beach...aarhhhh....what a great feeling.... Oh don't forget the wind breezing.....coconut trees waving.......i can go on and on and on.....

InsyaAllah...we'll be heading to Trengganu for the beach in March.....

Perak.....moral of the story...

It's been few days since the havoc in Perak. I have not been in the mood to write anything about it in my little blog here.

It's a mixed feelings of anger, frustration, surprise, awed, and all other feelings, which most of them are negative. I searched for the positive lessons to grab from it all.

I symphatize Datuk Nizar for having to face this injustice,
I symphatize the people of Perak for the democracy robbed from them,
I symphatize the Pakatan Rakyat leaders for the manner that BN overtook power from them....

BUT, I HAVE NEVER FELT THE MOST PITY .....

to all the people in BN who are so in love with POWER and MONEY!! If only they realized that this life here on earth is just a big drama before we reach the ultimate life in Hereafter! Allah has promised us in the Quran, that he will surely gives all that you desires if the earthly life that you choose...but Jahannam is your place in Hereafter! So, choose wisely of the options.

I pray that Allah bestow upon all of us Hidayah, for us to come back to Allah and Rasulullah saw.

Enjoying all the classes...

It's never too old to study...right! I have few classes under my belt right now, which i must say...I'm enjoying every moment of it.

I have my Kelas Ugama with Ustaz Abdul Muen, Learning Arabic, also with him and my Learning Disabilities in Children Diploma in KL. I will also be starting my CCNA certification class, next week. They will surely keep me very busy till the end of the year, at least...insyaAllah.

You know, one can never have enough of information or "pengisian" in her lifetime. Its a journey. The more you learn, the more you realize that there's so much more that you don't know. But, once you know it, you must practice them in your life, or else it become useless...like the saying "ILMU TANPA AMAL IS NOTHING..!" Thats something that I'm afraid of. I pray to Allah, that He gives me the courage and strength to practice all the knowledge I was informed with. Plus, to pass them to my children, families, relatives and friends.

As for technical knowledge and certifications, i hope it will assist me in understanding my job better, thus to perform and produce effectively.

So...u gals and guys out there...

GO TO THE CLASSES...KULIAH MAGHRIB, CERAMAH and OTHER forms of "pengisian".

You will sure enjoy the benefits.

Abu Saif in Wangsa Maju

Yesterday, after going thru the heavy rain and jam, i arrived just on time before the end of 'waktu' Maghrib, in Surau Al Naim, Wangsa Maju. I wanted to listen to the kuliyah maghrib by Abu Saif. Alhamdulillah, Allah allows me to be his listener.....

Abu Saif, was everything that I had imagined, from reading his postings in his blog...SAIFULISLAM.COM. A very energetic, straight to the point ustaz, whom i found my fond acceptance. I like the way he thinks and express it in writing. So, yesterday was the first time seeing him in-person. InsyaAllah..... i would like to attend more of his kuliyah.

A lot of information was obtained during the kuliyah, where he talked about history of the OTTOMAN EMPIRE. I have one nothing but a feeling of shame, that I do not know the important history, that had shaped what Muslims are now. All muslims must learn the sirah of Rasulullah saw and the history of Islam and its empires.

Can we change the education system, or even the syllabus of Sejarah subject in school??? Loooonggg way to go huh!

I have one conclusion to make from the kuliyah in the broader term....

HISTORY SHAPED A PERSON AND ITS CULTURE, BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY, IT SHOULD BE A LESSON FOR A PERSON TO BE BETTER IN THE FUTURE....WITH USAHA, DOA AND TAWAKAL TO ALLAH.....

A "mengeteh" session with Anis, Ruzai and Fairuz

It was a "mengeteh" session with the gang today at the Papa Rich in PJ. The ocassion is that Anis will be leaving to Bristol, England for her PhD. Again, we are proud of her for taking this steps forward, although, we'll surely miss her....!! Anis, aku nak ikut hang la....uhuks, uhuks.......

InsyaAllah , we'll visit hang kat sana.... Doakan boss aku bagi bonus mcm Celcom!

Anis, is as spirited and cheerful as usual, not to mention maintaining her gedik santai features...No worries gal, we love u as u are. Aku doakan hang ok kat sana and of course balik ngan title DR.

Enjoy the new experience, culture and beauty that Bristol has to offer.

Take care now!!!!!!!!!!!

My baby..BATRISYIA is 6 years young on 20th Dec 08...

It's like writing a belated birthday card..... Alhamdulillah, Batrisyia is 6 years young.

We had fun getting her present and a day out at KLCC. She wanted a play-crown and a treat at California Kitchen. It was nice that the staff in CK, sang Happy B'day to her and a little feast of ice-cream with a candle on top. Thank u guys....

Since it was princess-like birthday for her, no one is supposed to scold or make her angry on that day...but it turned out that she actually used the opportunity to bully her sisters, amin and me.....!!! Urgh!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR CACA........WE LUV YA SOOOOOO MUCH!

A year of 1430H / 2009

Salam Maal Hijrah and Happy New Year 2009....!! I have mixed feelings and several interpretation of a "happy" new year. I'm all thankful, happy, sad, frustrated, awed, angry, glad, content plus all other feelings come 2009.

1. I thank Allah that I'm still alive to be nearer to Him.
2. I thank Allah for allowing me to continue taking care or my mom and children.
3. I am happy that my gals are settled down in school, after the transferring and all.
4. BUT...I"M SO VERY SAD AND ANGRY FOR WHAT IS HAPPENING TO OUR BROTHERS AND SISTERS IN PALESTINE...I'm so helpless....

Ya Allah! May U protect them from the Zionist regime and bestowed them great strength and courage....Ameen!

What if it's us in Malaysia that Allah test with what happened in Palestine......??? I can't even imagine!!

Allahuakbar!!!!